Worse and worse

It's so strange.

I can't read anything anymore. It's all so foreign. I flounder and founder when I attempt to play. What happened? I just can't seem to even get back to where I was before. I feel like I'm 28kyu all over again. It's so frustrating.

I played a 19kyu player last night with a 3-stone handicap and lost by a huge margin. I just don't see how to move anymore. My strongest thing was my fuseki, and I can't even figure out how to do that anymore. Ah well... I'll keep playing and maybe it will come to me. That's what I keep saying anyway.